His Hand Brings Comfort To My Soul

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In 1 Peter 2:2-3 (NIV), it says “like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.”

I will be honest with all of you: One of the main reasons why I haven’t been too active on my page lately was because I felt as if I was slowly being pulled away from hearing God’s Word, knowing that those lonesome days was when I needed Him the most and to hear all of you and your uplifting words. Because I was not being a ‘tough-as-nails fighter’ when it came to disputing or arguing with anyone, I was told that I have too many other people that walk over me. It’s not that, but rather, I chose to stick with a different plan that the Lord desired for me to walk.

In Matthew 5:38-40 (NIV), this is a message Jesus wanted us to know. It quotes: “You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.’But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. 40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well.”

So consider me still a ‘calf or babe’ in the Lord. I am not perfect, nor do I see myself above anyone else. I can’t argue like a relative can or a friend can. Believe me: I’ve tried that tactic before and currently deal with moments of someone trying to keep me active in that kind of behavior, but I’m still praying to stay away from it. In addition, the same ending always happens: I feel guilty (whether I am the cause for the dispute), I feel a strong and emotional pain within my heart and chest, and apologize first.

All I know is that there is something inside of me that is causing me to be the way I am. I’d rather sacrifice my life before others, I’d rather make others happy and feel better (writing them uplifting poems, help them after my school’s days. etc) than see them sad, and I’d rather put up with the insults now rather than later because I DO NOT want to hear them later on while dealing with other future life issues. Which is probably why when I see someone cry, I tear up as well. This is one of those sympathetic questions and mysteries about myself that I just never… understood.

In the end of the day, I feel so much relief, comfort, and solace in His arms. I’m announcing it, saying it, and… I continue to crave more and more of His Word and hearing the inspiring messages from all of you. I remember watching a movie titled “Passion of the Christ”, and one of the images I still recall was of when Jesus was hit, spit on, and bad mouthed so badly by everyone that he still believed, stood back up, and kept moving  on to His destination through Jerusalem. I can never do, sacrifice, or face the hardest challenges He has been through, but I never gave up on turning to Him, praying to Him, and turning to Him whenever I am afraid or I need help. He gives me peace, and I am thankful for that. 🙂

 

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Avoid Having The Lustful Eye

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Sending a shout out to the blogger of “Turn Back To God” for sharing this image. Thank you.

In 1 John 2:15-16 (NIV), it says “Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them. For everything in the world — the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life — comes not from the Father but from the world.”

I grew up around people and loved ones (besides a select few) that lived and followed this way of life and how to pick up partners. It was as if I didn’t understand to understand, but I understood. Confused by my words? Then we’re on the right track then.

To begin, the “lust of the eye(s)” is a dangerous thing and one sinful weapon in this world. How? Matthew 5:28 (NIV) quotes “But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.” But isn’t there a written commandment about this somewhere? Oh wait. Out of the 10 written commandments, the 7th Commandment says “Thou shalt not commit adultery.” Matthew 6:22 (NIV) quotes “The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eye is healthy, your whole body is full of light.”

Just because it says that this lesson is meant for men does not mean that for us, females, we get a free pass or a “Get Out Of Jail Free” card on a Monopoly Board Game. Sorry. I shifted off topic for a second because I remembered being sent to jail during one of my board game plays with my family. Anyways, this lesson pertains to females as well.

I will admit that I was guilty of such a lustful path as a teenager, but then, there were reasons for my activities. From the exposure to my life fears, I didn’t know what to do, and because I wasn’t taught how a man should appreciate and love a child in the Lord, I was still not fully understanding how a man should treat me. After witnessing a lot of relationship violence, I thought that was how a man should love me OR any man could have their way with me as long as I’m respecting their needs.

Yeah, I was in trouble, but as of right now, not anymore. When I first became an adult at 21, I still had that same mindset of a teenager. I had so much discovery and mentality to learn on what it truly meant to be an adult. So besides ‘responsibility’ in the world, I was learning how to grow up ‘spiritually’ in Faith. It’s paying off because I’ve learned how to push away from people and those things that enjoy bringing me down and can only see me as a sexual object first before listening to me. Oddly enough, I’m currently dealing with an ex that claims that he loves me for who I am but is mindset is sexually stuck and charged towards me. What can I do with a man that doesn’t believe in God? Ultimately, pray to God in helping me to push him away from me. Only God knows what to do.

Our eyes are “the windows to the soul”, as mentioned by William Shakespeare and described a way in the bible. Anyways, when we “lustfully” gaze at someone, it creates an immediate domino effect: From our eyes, through our hearts, and through our spirits; which is a kind of infection that only “WE” can unaffect ourselves spiritually from with the Lord’s Hand.

Your spouse should look towards you as a loving friend, studying the Lord’s Word together, teaching one another, while in the meantime, having fun and enjoying each other’s company. That’s the kind of husband I pray to have one day. Not a man that only looks to me and seeks sexual attention from me or like a sexual object. 😦

All we have to do is do our part, believe in God and remember that He will always make a way out of no way. I know what it means to continuously fight for Him and what it means to be persecuted because of Him… because that’s exactly what I’m going through in my life now. For God, I will always keep on fighting for Him.

I will keep all you in my prayers. Love you all, Brothers and Sisters! In Jesus Name, Amen.

‘To Study Or Not To Study? That’s The Question.’

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In 2 Timothy 2:15 (NIV), it quotes “Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who currently handles the word of truth.”

I know that I am, in no way, a perfect woman to lie to any of you that I hold and carry my bible every day as a faithful Christian would because in truth… I’m not. But lately, I have been missing the bible study classes I used to attend with my family and friends instead of just… always studying my bible alone nowadays. There was something I always gained in terms of studying the Lord’s Word with someone or in a group. The joy and excitement I would always feel from learning something “NEW” and understanding the deeper meanings behind the Lord’s Words and the many parables and verses the Bible holds.

With this drive in my heart, it’s sad because I am alone, but I will admit to all of you this one thing: I am more than proud and happy to learn something encouraging and inspiring from all of you. All of you are my bible-study companions and connections. That ‘connection’ that I miss so much and so dearly.

Apologies everyone. I wanted to vent out for a moment. Onto the topic at hand.

This passage is expressed to all of us that we must always remember to keep the Lord’s Words in mind and to “… not be ashamed…” of it. It hurts me to read, watch, and hear about how more people are accepting the abolishment of the Lord’s Word around the world. It hurts… to witness how easy it has become, but then again, we were forewarned about this. In Matthew 5:11 (NIV), the Lord said “Blessed are you when people insult you,  persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me.” Later on, the Lord, in the book of Revelation 2:10 (NIV), quotes “Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you, the devil will put some of you in prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days. Be faithful, to the point of death, and I will give you life as your victor’s crown.” This gives my spiritual major push in wanting to learn more.

I may not be able to travel the world, but I am willing to learn more, share, and teach what I know in order to help someone and encourage someone to keep on moving forward in their walk with Jesus Christ. As far as the ‘teaching’ aspect goes, I really have a lot more to learn about that in regards for how to properly answer questions people may have about Jesus Christ and why they should walk with Him.

Stay strong everyone. 🙂

When I See This Cross (Poem)

The Cross

When I see the Lord's Cross...
I think of how Jesus Christ
sacrificed His perfect to help save my soul... my life.
When I see the Lord's Cross...
I think of how God wanted His children to carry on and save others,
to not move and think of our past hurts and pains, but to move forward.
When I see the Lord's Cross...
I think of how He was able to overcome the biggest of challenges,
regardless of where He was on the face of this planet,
and tell the Devil to flee from Him, despite the enemy's failed tactics.
When I see the Lord's Cross...
I think of the overflow of love
that He continuously blesses me to share from the Heavens above,
even proving His love's presence around me from the flying doves.
When I see the Lord's Cross...
I think of my Sisters and Brothers
in Christ's Name, that I will forever love 
as I would as I do with my own family; my fathers and mothers.
When I see the Lord's Cross...
I think of His open arms that I run into
for safety and security through and through
because His Love will never change and will always remain true.
When I see the Lord's Cross...
all I can do is praise His Holy Name,
praise His Name only for no other name deserves the same,
because He is my friend, my Father, my God in Heaven, in Jesus Name, Amen.

Going Near To God

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In James 4:8 (NIV), it says “Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.” To further explain the ‘double-minded’ understanding, it is already mentioned to us in Matthew 6:24 (NIV) that “No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money.”

I bring this up because I had a dream last night that was kind of… awkward, meaning that I couldn’t understand it… but I did understand it’s message: To fully devote myself to the Lord rather to sacrifice my soul for materials on earth. Let me explain my dream to you.

I was in some kind of town or city that had about 4 or 5 homes that were in front of me along the side of a dirt road. Anyways, in my dream, for some reason, I wanted to be a comedian (not in real life) and entertain a grand amount of people that I could hear laughing from a center near my location. As soon as the thought popped in my head, a man, out of nowhere, was in front of me sitting at a dining room table of some kind in a home. He gave me a pen and told me that he can make my dreams come true, which sounds more of like a fairy tale story. In my dream, I signed this contract with the man smiling at me, but before I could see his face, I woke up out of my dream.

Lately, I have been reading headlines and I have viewed many videos that explained how fame and fortune isn’t worth selling your soul for. I kid you not that my dream felt too real, which I know that in real life, my soul or spirit belongs to our Lord in Heaven. When you sell your soul (to Satan), that means that he can have and do whatever he wants and whenever he desires you to do those things. God wants the best for us, whereas the enemy wants to break us to have our souls in whichever way he can gain a soul.

Someone might ask: “What does this have to do with my blog post?” Give me a second because I had recalled a similar dream that, after waking back up, I cried in my bedroom over.

Years ago, I had this dream where I was inside of a locker room with a younger child on the other side of the small locker room hall. As we were changing in our locker room, a tall-like beast in red bust through our door and looked at both of us as if he could read our minds, as we somehow also read his as well. He looked to the young girl and asked her if ‘she wants to die’? The girl said ‘no’, and then the beast turned to me and asked me the same question. As soon as I said ‘no’ in my mind, he turned back to the young girl… and by us simply “mind reading” each other’s thoughts, I heard the young girl ask me “Why” as the beast quickly approached her… and then killed her in front of me. 😥 I, then woke up, cried my tears, and I prayed to God for forgiveness and to help me grow closer to Him.

That was one dream that hit my heart so bad to where I still remember it and I felt responsible for a girl’s death in my dream, but know this for certain that I would never do that in real life. I would’ve sacrificed my life for the child. My room’s pillow was drenched in my tears… but  I kept trying to remind myself that it was only a dream.

I say all of this to you because we know, for certain, that the enemy of the Lord will do whatever he can to break us down, but guess what? There’s always light that comes in the morning. I love the Lord by my side daily and have His presence there, because without Him, my life would be full of so much darkness. No, I do not know what you’re going through in your life, but know that just because you are living that way, does not mean you have to remain that way for the rest of your life. You have a way out by following the Lord’s Light. That same ‘Light’ years ago that I had awaken to from what I classified as a ‘dark’ dream was God’s morning light. It helped to ease my pain and fears that day and to show me that He was there.

The closer you grow to God, the more at peace you will be physically, mentally, and spiritually. Stay strong everyone.

God Is Mathematically Amazing

Lines (Math)

Mathematically, God is glorious;
His love is infinite and His Grace just flourishes.
He inspires and wishes to have a relationship with us
not being parallel to Him but to love more than to fuss.
Intersecting lines means two of the lines meets at some point.
Learning of His Word touched my spirit, my heart, and even my joints.
I want to gain a closer relationship with God that's nowhere obtuse,
but at least closer in degrees, so much that it's acute.
Help me make my spiritual walk linear to Your Will and Your Way.
Teach me how to stay silent, to listen, and to pray.
90 degrees is the weather forecast,
but I will continue to follow and fight until my time to rest at last.

Lifting Someone Up

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I came across a scripture for the day, on the ‘Bible Gateway’ site, and I am thankful that I have. The scripture was in James 1:22 (NIV) that says “Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.”

Whenever I share my posts, messages, or replies with all of you, I am being honest with all of you about whatever topic that is mentioned; even if I just give you a simple “Like” with no comment to follow behind it. It’s not because I believe that the “Like” was enough, but on the other side of this blog, I tried to remain strong and focus on writing instead of worrying about my outside troubles, pain, and noises. For example: I made a previous post about overcoming fears, when in fact, I was dealing with my own personal forms of fears. One fear was that, since I have Multiple Sclerosis (MS), when will I die and how will I die? Am I taking the right medications and am I on the right injection (Rebif helps me) to help combat my MS? By my family and I just recently dealing with a massive of family losses in 2016 and ongoing through this year, the nerves in my body isn’t as settled as it had been before.

Now, I’m not writing this message to point out my pain, but rather, it’s a message to aid me and help me whenever I feel bad or feel like giving up on things in my life. Whenever I reply a good message to anyone or even give you a “Like”, that is a reminder for me to come back and reread all of your messages and words again ‘FOR MYSELF’ because I need to. I need to read those messages and listen to your messages and share with you whatever message I may have. At the same time, I, too, need to revisit and review my messages as well to help keep me in line and the direction God wants me to follow and pursue.

Little you may know is that you all have been helping ‘me’ to climb over my stockpile of trouble in my life, and I am truly blessed and grateful to all of you. I needed you in my life, despite the fact of how far I am physically away from all of you, but spiritually is a whole new different ballgame when it involves Jesus Christ. 🙂 So again, THANK YOU FOR YOUR HELP!!